Evanescence - The last song I'm wasting on you

sparkling gray, thru my own veins
any more than a whisper, any sudden movement of my heart
and i know, i know i'll have to watch them pass away
juz get thru this day

give up ur way, u cud be anything
give up my way and lose myself, not today
that's too much guilt to pay

sickened in the sun you dare tell me you love me
but u held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
honey, you know, you know i'd never hurt you that way
youre juz so pretty in ur pain

give up my way and i cud be anything
i'll make my own way
without ur senseless hate, hate, hate, hate

so run, run, run
and hate me, if it feels good
i cant hear your screams anymore

you lied to me but im older now
and im noy buying baby
demanding my response
dont bother breaking the door down i found my way out

and you'll never hurt me again.

hate my life.

hey people...after so long i didnt update my blog. 2 mths i guess. alot of things happened. new work is fine. but tonite i never feel so low as much as tonite. wateva people had said bout me either good or bad.. i never actually care or take it seriously. wateva people sees me in their eyes.. either good or bad.. dun really bother me. but one person. only one person cud bring down all my ego..all my careless.. from being high i can juz go low. how strong his words is cud make me cry all night... cud give a slap on my face.. cud wake me up from my dream. it juz too strong. and it kills me at times. juz his words. he doesnt need to slap me..beat me.. struggle me. juz his words..i cud die from that. right now..im speechless. feeling low..unwanted. guilty.lost and fucked up. that's all people. gd nite.