i dun think love will call me. he's having fun with his dearest. I told him i wont disturb him but yet i still wait for his sms or call. Im bored and tired now..due to not enuf sleep. yesterday cudnt barely sleep well. tried to..my eyes were tired but my mind not sleeping.. juz now was my first day of early shift after off..always hard to sleep. n it went on untill my alarm rings..3.15am. yeah time to shower and get ready for work. n now im so shagged...will sleep soon. early today..cuz love will reach home late. by then i'll asleep already. haiz.... wats in my mind actually.. i also dunnoe. my eyes twitching from juz now.. wat is dat mean? i dun feel good... really.. why sey.. plz...i hate this kind of feeling. HMphhh!!.. yesterday outing with gfs.. was superb.. pixies havent load yet.. k.. seriously now i have no mood..but im still typing...dat is it ppl.. before i drag nonsense.. gd nite.
4 mOrE DaYz!!
8:56pm.as per usual waiting bf to call..i didnt seem dat excited as my title actually... okay2 lar.. happy cuz..the person who supposed to lead us and then back out halfway, he at last decided back to lead the team to Bali! yeah..thx Pak Andy.. Hahaha.. going out with girlfrenz tomm",.. shopping for toiletries to bali..hahaha.. toiletries is essential.. Mostly to women. Yeah rite maryam 'not excited'..haha abit lar.. Juz now i hand in my resignation letter. My Operational Manager..hold me back by saying company will offer more opportunities to me... on my area of arts.. Yeah rite!. i also dun want. why u have to realise a person is talent or credibility when he/she wanted to leave? why dont they realise it during her/his period of time giving the best of service to the company? Ive been in this company for 2 yrs.. no bonus..no increment.. attendance allowance taken..commission not adjusted.. dapat warning letter lagi ada...for stupid act..using hp in a 'STOREROOM'. 'storeroom' k.. a place where nobody sees u.. a place where there's a 4 cramp walls covered u with a door shut. what is their stand? ooh.. they will ans.."u left the shopfloor empty irresponsibly"..even there was another staff to cover..for goodness sake..not even 5mins of conversation on the phone.. warning letter for dat? not even had the chance to xplain urself..or atleast give an order of verbal warning..Im not scared of this warning letter. Not at all. but it affect my image and respect towards this company.I dun deserve all this. why i had to brought out this matter back..cuz it's stupid..only this company will actually busy finding fault with the staff rather than improving their managements value, politics, win the heart of their staffs..observe their staffs potential and charisma..but they dun see that at all..oohh..Reasons?? oohh..they will say.. becuz we have not yet seen ur full potential to grow.. yeah rite. Then when i want to leave...ur saying company has alot of plans of opportunities for the staff to expand? Mana? sini? sana? situ? tak nampak pun... work attics je yg meleret2.. haiz.... My operational manager give me 2 days to think it over.. Think taik ah.. haha..my bf fav words.. yes TAIK AH! nothing to think i had decided and datz it..there's no turning point..and im going to see in different directions when i start with my new job. Im sorry..GOODBBBYEEE!!!!!!!!!!
Monday..BF day.
So long i neva took public with love..asyik naik car je..and we did took public juz now..even only to causeway point. haha..we did really have a good time(",). Yesterday was suck at work. Thanks to that bitch. I dunnoe are you really feel good when u do something to make people hate u? i juz dunnoe..masih ada jugak orang2 yang busuk hati..lucky im leaving. thanks eh. But still it was a great nite with fara yesterday at work...eventhough both of us were down...but alot of things we shared. And good news..my leaves approved for BALI already...woooohhooooooo!!!!!! BAli here i come...even ALOT of things happened.. some of them cud not make it. sad. but this trip still has to go on..even the one who shud lead us..wont be around..sad. haiz... k lar.. datz all ppl. Gd nite.
What is Love withOut You.
8:59pm now..waiting for love to call me. alot of things happened this week. There was good and bad. The good one is..Ive got a place in Universal Studio under Resort World Sentosa as a Costume Specialists",.. job scope? i have to dress up the performers for the theatrical shows at universal studio and casino..have to in-charged with the costumes..all about backstage crew. Fun sia!.. haha i never imagine myself doing this. and partly this is my forte about costumes.. so this is so my thing. They offered me higher basic from my current company.. they have bonus,overtime and increment..free meal.. woah.. im loving it. maybe i can take all the ride for free also! haha my wish! gonna bring my beloved nieces and small cuzins if i can get half price;P. hehe.. and my love can bring his fav nephew also",.. signed the appointment letter already..gonna tender this 27th.. this is the saddest part.. i heart my frenz at my current working place. they have been there to laugh..to make fun..to blasts..to cry.. to shop. To Fara, Era, Faizal and the rest that have been good to me, Im gonna miss u all. I have to leave for good. for my future. For my family and for my love. im sorry..but i'll treasure everything but only the good ones.. alot of memories wit them... the most with those name mentioned above.. Ive appreciate their care and love for me.. Be good k Gorgeous! To Fara, I noe light is not on you for now. Love is not on ur side. Believe me..if he really meant for you he will always be. However it is..we'll always be on ur side. Ive treated u more as a friend..more like a sister..even i noe u only for 2yrs.. we bitch together, cry together..blasts together. love is cruel.. but patience is virtue. follow ur mind and ur heart. if it say so then it'll be urs. So dun pretend everything is fine..juz let it out..I noe how it feels. We are geminians Babe.. we click. haha..Well.. me and my love..still going strong..sometimes i dunnoe where that strength come from me, to face all the obstacles and all the hiccups after all this yrs with him. Maybe my love for him too strong.. and there's no others that can take his place. Love him. He's the reason i wake up everyday. gd nite ppl.
Sakit Hatiku
Aku tahu engkau terpaksa
Cintai ku kerna iman mu.
Juga aku yang slalu memohon
mengemis cinta pada mu.
Dia lebih layak dariku
Seperti apa yang kau mahu
kau juga tetap menginginkanku
hanya untuk keterpaksaan
sakit hatiku
saat kau dekat dengan nya
kau peluk mesra dirinya
namun aku tak kuasa
kerna ku rela kau jalin cinta dengannya
walau perih ku rasakan demi cinta.
nice song. for stupid women.
See No Evil.Hear No Evil.Speak No Evil.
It's 8:11pm now. Waiting for love to call me. Has been reading alot of fengshui and horoscope lately.. haha. This year will be a good year for me. 'It' says lar. maybe soon..maybe later. It's not right to believe it. But for me it juz a kind of motivation and nothing more. I believe good or bad.. GOD will decide. We, human has to work hard to achieve what we want. Received a 'promise' sms from love to me last nite. Touches me so much and kept me smiling all day long(",). hmmmmmmmmm... ouhh kay! no mushy2 here. haha. Im in holiday mood rite now. Counting down for the days to BALI. Argh!! cant wait!! I even prepared a list of things to bring already..nyehehe..haha wit 'EXCEL' somemore.. haha. S.e.m.a.n.g.a.t. dah boring ar babe. well enjoy some pixies me at work with bunch of my gd frenz..", 
See No Evil. Hear No Evil. Speak No Evil.
..haha yeah rite..
"Chloeans Babes"
"Dila Last Day in Airport"
anyway........ 
"see2!!! i took Rossa Signature!! even she was not looking at me..damn.. but still me with my diary open, smiling sheepishly, waiting patiencely.. for her to finish sign at my book..while she posing with the pen on the book..with the cams non-stop clicking..as if mcm sign cert nikah.hahaha..aaahh...it was one of the loveliest nite ever. Not becuz of the show.. but becus of HER.Luv u lar ROSSA(",).."
that's all people for tonight.. love HIM.
tIReD
back from work. working mid shift today. the most not favourite shift. cuz no free taxi. has to take bus to and fro. boring. yeap life getting boring everyday. tomm i have interview for resort world sentosa. failed the first one. dun wish to elaborate. suddenly i had this thought in my mind. wat is a company without employee..and wat is employee without employer. a lot of new staff coming in juz now.. feel like telling them they are wasting their time here. maybe this is their temporary option before they further their studies. at least they have aims. i do have one of course. and im not sure when i cud achieve that.. it's all about money. money and money. like my bf always said..saving..saving..saving...haiz with this kind of pay im getting in every month..it's so sickening.. well.. im not hoping for the best with this company.. but im hoping the best for myself when im out from there. wish me luck for tomm..if i got the job...at last i'll be doing things dat related to wat im supposed to. oh god..help me. gd nite ppl..
A new Blog..A new Year.
Hey..
Welcome to the world of Me. This Blog wont be too personal about myself neither too general. It's neutral. It's not about updating my life..but it's more about letting out my heartfelt. life getting boring.. and to have this..somehow or rather will occupied some of my time. It's not that i dun have a life. I have a lovely Bf, beautiful family and gorgeous friends. it wont kill to spend 10 mins for this everyday. I juz need something to write..to type.. im a thinker. haha. well said. I have a lot of thing to say..to write.. so keep up wit the next posts. Thanks.
